Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Sigh...

I've got a funny feeling
The moment that your lips touched mine
Something shot right through me
My heart skipped a beat in time

There's a different feel about you tonight
It's got me thinkin' lots of crazy things
I even think I saw a flash of light
It felt like electricity

You shouldn't kiss me like this
Unless you mean it like that
Cause I'll just close my eyes
And I won't know where I'm at
We'll get lost on this dance floor
Spinnin' around
And around
And around
And around

They're all watchin' us now

They think we're falling in love
They'd never believe we're just friends
When you kiss me like this
I think you mean it like that
If you do maybe kiss me again

Everybody swears we make the perfect pair
But dancing is as far as it goes
Girl you've never moved me quite
The way you moved me tonight
I just wanted you to know
I just wanted you to know

You shouldn't kiss me like this
Unless you mean it like that
Cause I'll just close my eyes
And I won't know where I'm at
We'll get lost on this dance floor
Spinnin' around
And around
And around
And around

They're all watchin' us now
They think we're falling in love
They'd never believe we're just friends
When you kiss me like this
I think you mean it like that
If you do baby kiss me again
Kiss me again


Sigh............

Remember When

Remember when I was young and so were you
And time stood still and love was all we knew
You were the first, so was I
We made love and then you cried
Remember when
Remember when we vowed the vows
and walked the walk
Gave our hearts, made the start, it was hard
We lived and learned, life threw curves
There was joy, there was hurt
Remember when

Remember when old ones died and new were born
And life was changed, disassembled, rearranged
We came together, fell apart
And broke each other's hearts
Remember when

Remember when the sound of little feet
was the music
We danced to week to week
Brought back the love, we found trust
Vowed we'd never give up
Remember when

Remember when thirty something seemed old
Now lookin' back, it's just a steppin' stone
To where we are,
where we've been
Said we'd do it all again
Remember when

Remember when we said when we turned gray
When the children grow up and move away
We won't be sad, we'll be glad
For all the life we've had
And we'll remember when

Remember when
Remember when

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Why am I the only one that feels like I'm trying??

Why am I trying??? I shouldn't be.

Why am I sitting here, thinking about him???

Monday, January 1, 2007

New Year's Resolutions, Day 1

Okay, so last week, I listed the New Year's resolution list. Today, January 1st, day 1 of the new me, has begun. So far, I have not quit anything. Some things have not started yet, but nothing quit. Good track record thus far.

Here's where I am on my goals:

- Spend more time with my husband. Individual time...quality time. Not, let's run to the grocery store time. Joined a gym together. Spent this afternoon working out....together. We enjoyed it, feel better, and spent valuable time together. Car ride over and back was nice as well - time to just talk with minimal to no distractions. He's currently in the next room on the computer. We'll work on that. =)

- Further my education. This does not have to be in the form of actual schooling, but I want to learn more about something. It doesn't even have to be school related, or degree related. I just want to enlighten myself more. Anyone have any suggestions? No real decision yet as to how I want to further my education, but a current understanding that I need to make that decision soon. Important to know what I want to do, so that I am able to do it.

- Focus on my health. Ah, the innevitable blip about how I do not focus enough on my health goals, and therefore every year challenge myself to do something about it. This year will be no different. At least, in the challenge that is. Hopefully, with some due dilegence, the outcome will change. Focus includes getting rid of excess weight, unwanted cough, blood pressure medicine, and crazy pills. Crazy pills would be an amazing feat....those are likely with me for life. Health focus beginning. Joined gym (see above) with added benefit of unlimited tanning included. Gym is only $20 a month, is huge, has free personal training classes, all kinds of facilities, and free tanning. Oh, and only one of us needed to join, because you can bring a guest for free, every time you come. Tanning benefit great - will be able to not look like a ghost in near future. Could add health problems if over done, but recognize that now, so will be conscience of it. Not planning on doing it regularly...honestly, just want to kick start my current state of clear. Plan to make dr's appointment for cough tomorrow, so hopefully that will be resolved soon. Still taking crazy pills and blood pressure medicine, but forgot to do that so far today. Still does not translate to "stop taking it." Eating healthier, drinking water. Good start. Recognize it's only day one. Typing this will hopefully help keeping myself accountable. Oh, and took before pictures. Yuck.

- Be happier. Stop going through the motions of life and enjoy them. Take some time to stop and smell the roses. Had an epihany yesterday, and realized that there is really nothing I've ever liked so much that I've been passionate about it. With that understanding, looking for something that I love and can be passionate about. Wonder if I'm not a passionate person. Seems that I am....not convinced though. Believe that passion is important to find things that make you happy. Am I right?

- See friends and family more. Spend that free time seeing people that you don't normalily get to. See friends as much as possible. Visit family as much as possible. Saw Melissa today. Haven't seen her in a really long time. Step in right direction. Saw Eric and Mom a couple of days ago...also a step in the right direction. Grandfather had massive heart attack today, and I'm not there. Family says don't come...nothing I can do. Not happy with that...but don't want to be in the way. Plans to go down there as soon as I'm given the red light. Will be able to see family then. Yeah!

- Plan outings. Go to them. Okay, no outings planned yet. It's only day 1. Give me a break.

- Eliminate something significant off that "always wanted to do list." Current ideas: make the t-shirt quilt (this could also serve as the education, since I would need both to complete this task), jump out of a plane, visit California, just to name a few. Ideas? Also day 1. No definite plans yet. Realize that I need to make that plan though.

- Get myself promoted and out of this current position as near as possible to September 1st. This goal is actually carried over from 2006, but can not be accomplished earlier than the September 1st date. I told myself I'd be in this position for a year...Sept. 1st will be the one year date. Okay, so that didn't happen today...but since i didn't work and no one's in the office, I didn't expect that. Good news though - I'm going to be stepping out of my role for a month, and working with the marketing department. Great step in the right direction - I'm one of only 16 people selected in the company to do this. Conscience decision made to shine...will certainly help in getting me promoted.

- Do not quit my job in March. Sounds silly, I know, but I have a track record of 3.5 years with a company. March 07 will be my 3.5 year mark. I don't have any intentions of leaving, and do not really want to, but it all starts out that way. If I do leave, make it worth while. Not March yet. Have not quit my job today. So far, so good.

- Love more, argue less. Smile more, pout less. No arguments today - heated debate yesterday. Yesterday was so 2006. Today, good. Got frustrated today that Ben was not getting motivated about going to the gym. Must work on patience. Will certainly help with the less pouting (and less arguing) goal.

- Overcome my cold calling weaknesses. Will begin tomorrow.

- Don't get fired. So far, so good.

- Learn to love my current position. Currently not miserable. Not in love with it, but happy most days to get up and do the job. Good start in the right direction. Changing other areas of life certain to assist in liking this one more.

- Complete this list prior to December 31, 2007. That's a long time from now.